hi!!!!
so, i'm just speaking into a void because i know nobody will listen to this or nobody actually looks at my site
but why not speak into the void whenever you feel like you need to, right? lol
i think i need to be medicated. like HEAVILY. like LOBOTOMIZED.
i met the man who i believed was the love of my life, and at times he is.
but, he has a serious issue with overthinking and paranoia to the point where i'm considering that he might be a paranoid schizophrenic
(no offense to anyone that actually has schizophrenia, i love u being here)
but i'm honestly just starting to get tired of it.
he questions me multiple times for no fucking reason and has isolated me from all my friends and practically all of my family already. my sister doesn't even talk to me anymore.
it seriously feels like my life is going on a downward spiral and i have no way of stopping it.
i'm very lost and i'm very tired. i have no idea what i'm gonna do.
i just feel very stupid.
this man branded his name on my chest and made me carve it into my arm when he was angry at me.
i feel ugly whenever i see it.
he constantly tells me that he's gonna change and that he wants our future, but i genuinely don't believe him. i don't even believe in him.
i'll tell him how i constantly feel all of the time, and it's like it goes in one ear and out of the other.
i don't like him and i genuinely am starting to hate his fucking soul.
guys, never get back multiple times with a man who cheated on you 6 times with 3 different people...
#ZONTZOIT
wish me luck and hope that i don't kill myself in the next 6 months...
#JKbutnotreally
with love,
gabby